divine purpose

WARNING! Due to lack of sleep, stress, and overall frustration, I am going to be venting, don't read it if you don't want to listen to me vent.

Alright, I warned you.

As of late I have been dealing with a lot of stress.

Normal college student stuff right?

I'm frustrated & exhausted. I'm starting to let little things bother me, but then those little things get bigger, and I HATE that. 

Yesterday at church I had this overwhelming feeling, I haven't been able to put my finger down on what exactly that feeling was about yet, and it is really starting to bother me. 

One major goal of mine is to be a better example. To love life at all times, endure trials, be strong, have more confidence in who I am, and bless the lives of those around me. My trials are minuscule compared to others, why do the littlest things frustrate me?

 I am the only one who can make myself happy, and the only one to can make myself unhappy. Sure people will say stuff that may offend me, but I choose to be offended. I need to live my own life and not base it on the opinions of others. I'm frustrated because people keep giving me their opinions I don't want. I've always been a people pleaser, but it's time for me to grow up and not be walked on. We all have potential, and divine purpose, to get to that level of growth we need to strive to be as close with our Heavenly Father as possible. Being more Christlike, holding our tongue more often, kneeling in prayer more often, repentance, and keeping the commandments. All those small things we are asked to do will give us eternal life, it's a small price for that beautiful blessing we are given. This post is for me, for record, to look back on and remember what I really want, how I need to be.That's all.

"No matter what circumstances you sisters experience, your influence can be marvelously far-reaching. I believe some of you have a tendency to underestimate your profound capacity for blessing the lives of others. More often than not, it is not on the stage with some public pronouncement but in your example of righteousness and the countless gentle acts of love and kindness done so willingly, so often on a one-to-one basis."

--James E. Faust, "You Are All Heaven Sent," Ensign, Nov. 2002