avoiding

i'm getting better and better at the whole avoiding thing. and to make it even better, i'm a really indecisive person, i'm working on it, but i am. 

things i've been avoiding lately, and how i am going to try to fix it:

blogging

i'm in a weird funk {healing, or the lack there of is really starting to get to me} and i have been really negative, and i feel like all of my posts will be the same way. so please bare with me.

goal #1: blog every other day a quick post of something good.

homework

again, i still don't feel great, and i haven't been sleeping well so i avoid doing my homework, and i take naps or lay down instead. i am so behind with my classes. 

goal #2: get caught up by the weekend

allowing myself to like someone again

it's no secret, boys suck. one boy can break your heart and ruin your idea of ALL men. i wish this one was easier, i met a really great guy, now i need to tell myself it will be okay to like him.

goal #3: spend more time with said boy

running into an ex

the ex, you know, the one that broke my heart. i know all the places he goes, and i avoid them at all cost. but why? i'm ridiculous sometimes, i tell you.

goal #4: live my life, who cares anyway?

that voice telling me that what i've decided to do for the rest of my life is wrong

satan. i don't like you at all. i know what is best for me, but for some reason sometimes i feel like maybe i'm wrong, maybe i'm not doing what i should, maybe that is why i'm being challenged with all of these trials? wrong. heavenly father is giving me these trials because he  knows i'm strong enough to handle it, and i will. i'll get better.

goal #5: keep avoiding that voice, and pray to my heavenly father more often

even with the stresses of homework, boys, exes, and just life in general..

life is good. 

i am truly blessed for all i have.